Ambivilence stupor

I'm afraid I'm not passionate about much. Or, that I have the passion within me, but I don't have a chance to unlock it because I am too occupied doing laundry and washing dishes. Or, (even worse?) that I waste some of the good time I have just staring into space, and then I have to rush around doing laundry and washing dishes, then take the remaining late night hours to grade papers, and I don't even stop to think about what I would like to be doing if I finally had this "life" thing down pat and all in order. So, what do I wish for? More time? Would that do it? I think I would just like a little more structure. A good project I was engaged in, one in which I am working with others, contributing a little, learning a bit, and it has the added benefit of anchoring my time. I spend such a large majority of my time with myself, and a miniature lady who just turned one (yeah!), that I've actually lost a sense of myself. I just don't know where to find me.