Finding structure

I realized I hadn't written in quite some time, so I ventured over and immediately was taken in and redirected by my last post. I am happy to report that the stupor I was suffering has been (at least momentarily) combated. Ironically, I am keeping myself busier and structuring my days better now that I am not working. The key was that I wrote down a lot of little home projects that really need to get done and that I want to do, and I have been slowly tackling them this summer. Ella has helped me immensely, too, by starting to take longer naps. Finally, after 7 or more months in which her two naps a day have been consistently 30 - 40 minutes each, she has started taking naps that last 1 - 1.5 hours, occasionally even sleeping longer. It's amazing how much more I can get done during those nap times now! So, I have embraced a new purpose in "nesting," and I gotta admit it feels good. In the first 2 weeks or so I've painted the hallway, cleaned up the scraggly excuse for landscaping, cleaned out Tay's room, and all around have done better at keeping up with housework and cooking decent meals. Ah. It feels good to not be fighting oneself all of the time. And, many of the projects I've chosen to tackle entail at least a wee bit of creativity, which helps me feel somewhat inspired on top of feeling productive. So far just the feeling of success is enough to sustain me.